Kysh (Andrey)
...do not give up and do not despair, do what you think is the right thing to do. Russia will definitely be free.
My entire childhood was spent in a country where people were afraid to discuss politics and speak the truth out loud. Even as a child, I saw how they beat and arrested protesters just for their opinions. I left.
I am now 31 and I have two children; we live in St. Petersburg. All my life I’ve been trying to show my children that the world is an open and safe place, that there are more kind and honest people than it seems. But they see what is happening around them. My eldest daughter is ten, and she has already seen how they beat protesters while she was trying to wade through the police cordon in the city center on her way to class. Now, she asks me to keep my voice down if the police is round. My younger daughter understands less, but they already force her and all the other children in her kindergarten to mould tanks and planes out of modelling clay as a present for their dads for the “Defender of the Fatherland” holiday.
For quite some time, I am. Though, one gets used to everything, including fear. It’s hard to believe that I am in danger, that we, my family and I, are in danger. I used to teach migrant children and we would constantly hear how people would openly reveal their hatred just because of the childrens’ appearance. Once, some unknown people tried to take me and the children “to the police, because we’re all terrorists” — it was terrifying.
It’s terrifying that Russia has no laws, only force and violence. It’s terrifying that police can simply beat, torture, and rape people and nothing can be changed. It’s terrifying that there are many people around me who support the war and say “they Ukraine deserved it”. Terrifying that old folks believe propaganda, even though they’ve been deceived for 22 years already — this is a rift that destroys families. It’s terrifying that half of my friends have left the country and the other half just can’t leave. It’s terrifying that from the TV screen Putin promises that Russia will “spit out” all the “traitors”, meaning those who stand for peace, meaning us.
When you live in this constant fear, you don’t know if being threatened because of a post on social media has made you any scarier. You don’t know whether you should be afraid that somehow maybe the Belarusian army, which is involved in the war on the side of the aggressor, is searching for you even though you haven’t owed that army anything for a long time. You don’t understand if it’s gotten more frightening now that people with whom you attended protests after the election in Belarus are being deported from the country. They’re being deported to Belarus, where they can expect nothing good, just because they happened to attend the same protest as you, but they were unlucky and you were fortunate.
But the most horrific things are happening far away and you can only imagine how terrifying it is right now in Ukraine. Yes, we are hostages of criminals the regime, but for the time being these criminals are more obsessed with another victim, who has it much worse than we do.
They left us all for later, we can be sure that our turn will come. After all, who else can be held responsible for this cruel, senseless, and lost war? It must be us, the domestic enemies.
...do not give up and do not despair, do what you think is the right thing to do. Russia will definitely be free.
...No one could ever imagine that literally tomorrow you would have to turn your life around 180 degrees and leave for a foreign country.
The victor isn’t the smartest, the bravest, the most privileged — the victor is the most stubborn
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